一个人久了，会上瘾的！
文章简介：转眼21年来，原来，我只是不能我开始对身边所有的人阳奉阴违，一个人过了很久，时间在不知不觉我好好好的睡一觉，真的好想。闭总是在这样安静的空间里，想着一路边的孩子在无尽的玩耍，可我却<BR><BR><BR><BR>转眼21年来，原来，我只是不能面对自己，以为蒙上了眼睛就可以看不见这个世界；以為捂住了耳朵，就可以听不见所有烦恼；以为脚步停了下来，心就可以不再运行。其实，我只是在逃避，一直是。我对身边的每一个人笑，笑的很灿烂，试图来证明我是一个很快乐的人，试图告诉他们，我是一个没心没肺的人。有人说：“这不是真实的你！”短短的一句话，狠狠的撕扯了我的面具…我是在逃避些什么？还是不敢面对什么？我以为，过了這么久，走了这么多，不管是什么我都可以平静面对，可是，現在我连我自己内心的想法都面对不了，那么，我拿什么来面对这个虚伪的世界？拿什么？<BR> 我开始对身边所有的人阳奉陰违，我开始对那段过去模糊不清，我开始对这个世界渐渐失望…有人说：“你已经麻木了！”我不知道，也不想知道，我想要做个自己喜欢的孩子，心里满满的全是希望。如果可以，我想要丢掉过去那一段段回忆，然后把那颗受伤的心拿出来用消毒水洗的干干净净。那么，我就会忘了谁是谁，忘了谁是谁非。最终，谁幸福也好，谁痛苦也罢，都与我无关。<BR> 一个人过了很久，时间在不知不觉中逝去，感觉自己老了许多，莫名的恐慌，莫名的难过。过去的，都过去了是吧，应该忘记的，都忘记了对吧！就这样一个人走着，其实，一个人久了，会上瘾的！<BR> 我好好好的睡一觉，真的好想。闭上眼睛，我感觉我慢慢的在向一个深渊靠近，没有方向。我這样孤独的躺在这里，静静的流泪，然后一点点的想明白…在人的一生中会受很多的伤，有的伤很软，时间和感情可以将它抹平；有的伤却是硬伤，无论时间怎么过去，无论感情如何变化，这个伤就是刻在那里，永远消失不了，并且不能去碰，一碰就是一次痛。安静，或许是一个比较的归宿，喧闹的地方，我反而会不适应。有时，在喧闹的地方，會多一点寂寞的感觉。<BR> 我爱夜，它有白天没有的魅力--静，让人倾心。<BR> 总是在这样安静的空间里，想着一些自己都想不明白的事情，最后的結果反而让自己更加难受。<BR> 路边的孩子在无尽的玩耍，可我却一直不如自己想像中的快乐。我就是这样一个可悲的人！<BR><BR><SCRIPT id=ExtractFlashCode>try { if (document && document.body){ if (window.extractflash) { } else { window.extractflash = 'come'; 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